Reverb10: Beyond Avoidance

The prompt for today, December 20, is beyond avoidance, suggested by Jake Nickell.

What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

I took mini-leaps of faith this year.  However, the biggest of them that I didn’t pursue fully was applying for a new job.  It’s something that’s been in my plate for two years now.  I had a chance when I was interviewed for a position one level higher than where I am now, still within the same organization.  I thought they didn’t want me, and ultimately, they probably didn’t, but after my interview, the position was re-advertised and was downgraded to the same grade level as I am.  I decided not to re-lodge my application because practically speaking, I’d rather stay where I am than go for a new kind of work for the same pay.

That was my thought then.  I didn’t think it would haunt me a few weeks later because I have to admit, I’m feeling so burned out, having done this job for almost 8 years.  This is my first job so I haven’t really seen much.  Plus, not all plans to move out of something are motivated by negative feelings.  I realized I am ready to leave this job if and when I feel something will work better for me, and I can only say goodbye with sadness because I’m leaving something great.  I can proudly say that generally speaking, my workplace is enjoying a very high level of morale.  Changes and transitions happen before my very eyes, too.  What else is there to complain about?  See, if a tiny part of you feels you will still pack and leave despite all of this, maybe it’s worth listening to.  More importantly, the person who got the re-advertised position was a very good fit for the job and he has become a good friend.  I easily accepted that it really wasn’t cut out for me.

Anyway, will I do it again if a great chance presents itself?

Yes, I definitely will.  I applied for interesting vacancies here and abroad as well but I guess I was about 70/30 sure so it didn’t come to fruition.  Next year, I plan to live by embracing change and getting out of my comfort zone.  Besides, I’m still young, at least by workplace standards, so this is a good time to explore other options.  Change is never easy yet I’m gearing myself for jumping off the edge (you know, the harmless kind of edge, for starters) because until I go there, I wouldn’t know.  Let’s see.

8 thoughts on “Reverb10: Beyond Avoidance

  1. ano ka ba
    you have a great job
    at ang dami pang perks
    (di ko nalang iisa-isahin at baka malaglag pa kita)
    your staff loves you
    stay put
    besides may (upcoming) vacancy dyan mismo sa unit mo
    yun ang kunin mo
    para big time ka na talaga
    otherwise, ako kukuha non
    nyahaha

    • hehe, may visitor na ulit ako from Windsor Mill, Maryland!!! Na-miss ko to. Hahaha 🙂
      Well, ang tao dapat open lagi sa changes. Kung wala namang dumating na maayos e di hindi ako aalis.
      Pero tama ka, my staff loves me. Baka hindi na ako makakita ng ganito, baka kulamin ako nung iba pag ibang office na.
      Sige, apply ka dito. Ako naman mag-a-apply dyan. Trainor. Joooke.

  2. Oh, my, I am so skilled at avoidance – and as much as I’ve been enjoying the reverb10 project, there are a few of these prompts that I am avoiding. I will get to them eventually….

    best wishes for your upcoming year of “embracing change and getting out of my comfort zone.”
    happy 2011!

    • Happy 2011 to you, too, Judy!

      Hope you’ll finally get to the prompts you, let’s not say avoided, but “put off” for a while 🙂 Would love to read your take on them. 🙂

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