I am alive and bouncing despite not having slept a wink last night. For real. Last night, I downed a coffee frappe on purpose because I intend to finish my paper and review a bit. Yeah, I know, the classic crammer in me. Anyway, I finished my tasks around 2 a.m. and was not able to sleep since.
The effect of caffeine hasn’t worn off a bit but here I am downing another one. Better to have continuity than gradually lose it tonight, when I need for one more night because I have a super hard exam tomorrow.
I so wanted to change since forever but I can’t. Procrastinating is a hard habit to break.
Well, if there’s one thing that I seem to break free from, it’s brushing negative things off after a couple of days. I don’t know if it’s the effect of coffee this morning but when I was walking to the main gate, I absent-mindedly looked to my right and saw her getting off a cab. She’s smiled and I waved at her. Like nothing happened. Then when we saw each other in the hallway, there were casual greetings and breezy comments about their moving-in day. If there’s a lesson I learned in this encounter, it’s sensing what issues need not to be raised with respect to another person’s sensitivity level. In this instance, it may do me good to refrain from asking about him when she’s around. Let’s leave things as they are. I just hope she gets what she wants in the end. I really mean it.
P.S. I am happy that Jen was voted People’s Best Dressed Celebrity. Based on the criteria, she really deserves it.
P.P.S. I don’t know if a second serving of extra strong coffee frappe after 18 hours is a good idea. I’m alive, alert, awake, but my hands are shaking. Oh drat.
P.P.P.S. If the final exam for my Thursday class will be on the 21st, it means I’m off one subject by the 22nd. If and when it happens, I will treat myself to a pitcher of margarita. I’ve been announcing my desire to have one since last month. It’s a perfect way to slowly get off a semester (that is hopefully a satisfactory one).